five things friday: sleep or not, being art, feeling wisdom
Published: Fri, 05/05/23
May 5, 2023
Hello there,
Any intro words I try and put down for this weeks things feels more like that awkward mingling chat you have while waiting in line, so let's skip that! Here are some thoughts and reflections that are hopefully more satisfying than space filling.
Please enjoy.
1. I didn't want to get up yesterday morning. I laid in bed thinking and
justifying why it would be fine to sleep in. My appointments where later in the day. What needed to be done could happen just as well at 2pm than at 9am. I really didn't need to get up right then. I pulled my covers up and snuggled into warm comfort- guilt free. Then I got up.
Sometimes giving myself permission to not do the thing is exactly what I need to do the thing. Not like a productivity, reverse psychology manipulation of myself. Yuck. It is finding my yes through my no. Giving myself what I want rather than doing what I "should" and finding my way to the task without dragging myself through it.
Sometimes I need to get up with my alarm because the day and my integrity calls for it. Sometimes my alarm is there because my day before self thought this would be a good time to start the day. But today's self is the one who gets to choose. Not the alarm.
2.
I love wandering a "serious" art supply store. By "serious" I mean art
stores where "real" artists go to buy their professional supplies like wall sized, custom stretched canvases and watercolor brushes that cost almost $300. The possibilities! I can get get intimidated too. I mean $300 brushes and shelves of mediums and solvents and what is the difference between watercolor, printmaking, Bristol, drawing, pastel and mixed media paper?
A couple of days ago I was in my favorite "serious" art store looking at a pack of 5 sheets of watercolor paper on sale for $77 down from $120 and spiraling into angst over all the things I didn't know and needed to make the kind of art I want to and all the money it would take that I didn't have (false absolutes but I was in a spiral).
I was smart and headed to children's section where I was greeted by familiar Crayola markers, cute stickers and this:
Its not all the serious. It really, really isn't.
3. Sometimes what you need falls into your lap.
I had a Dynamic
Emotional Integration® Consultation (big long name, I know), from one of my colleagues this week. If you are not familiar, a DEI consultation is not therapy, and different than coaching in that the focus is the emotions and the wisdom they have to offer.
I was asked if I wanted to be a demo client for a training and since it had been along time since I had had a consultation I said yes. It is true sometimes, what they say about the cobbler's children.
What I saw is how how my sadness and tears, along with my frustration are guiding me to flow into deeper alignment and coherence. How my curiosity and creativity are guiding into deeper integrity and healing an old moment of profound and far reaching self-abandonment.
And how, no matter how uncomfortable or inconvenient my emotions may be there is always a reason they arise and there is always a worthy job they are trying to do. Now I too can support the job my seemly jumbly emotions are trying to do for me with more awareness and care. I have clarity and feel more grounded than I have a long while.
I was reminded that being and becoming myself is a process and an art. And sacred.
4. We are all sacred art in process. We are always becoming more artfully ourselves and some points along the way will show up in the gallery of our memories or someone else's. Regardless of any past gallery shows the becoming continues, with all the accompanying and necessary messes, spills and failures. Good art doesn't get made
without oh so many of theses.
Cheers to the art we are and the messy studio of life we create in!
5.
A blessing for your week:
(image from Earth Magic by Steven Farmer)
May the ebbs and flow of your life carry you well and gently.
Until next
time, Sandi
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