It was nice to step back, and I am happy to be writing to you again after my break. Lots of naps were taken, my good friend's baby arrived, and I committed to
100 Days of Writing.
Here are a few of the things I remembered while resting. Perhaps they will remind you of important things to remember.
1.
Plans are at best rough drafts for life.
During my break I had intended to have photo walks, cafe time, creative time, and
naps. Creative time and naps happened in ways both planed and unplanned. Photo walks and cafe time didn't happen. We had several days of bad air quality due to smoke. Thankfully the fires were not local but the unhealthy air kept me housebound more than I anticipated. A baby arriving on the equinox pulled focus, joyfully, from all else.
My intention was to rest, reset, and renew. My plans helped me visualize how that could happen, but allowing life and the wisdom Karios time to rewrite the plans is what brought the intention to fruition. It is a dance.
2.
Rest is holy and it takes many forms.
I spent time handstitching the hems on some small blankets for above mentioned baby while watching Hometown Cha Cha Cha on Netflix. The
orginal plan to was use my machine and have a quick gift. Then my machine glitched I choose to do it by hand. It took much longer but looks so much nicer and the rhythm of the stitching was very soothing. Coupled with the sweet story of life in a small Korean seaside village, the project was surprisingly rejuvenating. I miss it.
Glitches sometime bare gifts.
3.
Free time will reveal what is being avoided.
Loneliness is one of those states I experience often, harshly judge myself for, and distract myself from often.
It brings forward a childlike part of me that wonders if I am lovable enough. Human I know, untrue I know, but painful when it visits. Avoiding the vulnerability of this leads to a lot of busyness and distraction behavior.
I am using this deck to
explore this more. The tender feel of it is a welcoming doorway in.
I am looking forward to discovering more about aloneness and loneliness.
