Hello Beautiful One,

It's time to dip into some luscious soulful beauty.

But before I get to the luscious beauty, I am going to share a soulful truth.

I have been scared to write to you.

For months and months I have been afraid and shy to send you what you came to Luscious Life for: Inspiration and thoughts on living a luscious life. You may have even forgot you came here at all and put your precious e-mail in my sign up box.

I am sorry. I hope you stay.

Have you ever been caught in feeling awkward about something (sending a thank you note, getting back to someone with a proposal for work, or -ahem- sending an e-mail message), that then somehow grows into avoidance, that then grows into non action on something important for a very long time, that then turns into proof that you are not a good person and should just not bother at all?

I have seen this type of avoidance spiral often in my years as a coach and I got majorly caught in one myself.

Here is what helped me break the spiral and send this to you today instead spinning down the "I suck as a person" avoidance spiral any longer.

It is never, never, ever about the thing being avoided. It is never, never, ever about you being a bad, lazy, undisciplined, uncaring, (insert any other judgment you hurl at yourself here) person.

The thing being avoided is a gatekeeper to something very important to you. The self judgments are tests to see if you can align with a deeper truth rather than be distracted by sabotaging thought patterns.

These gatekeepers are dragons at the gate of the castle, made ever more fierce because on the surface they look so benign. It's just and e-mail, return call, thank you, follow up, etc. right? Just a simple little thing you just keep not doing, you think.

Wrong.

These dragons can not be slain through force or discipline or logic. If they could they would be dead already and you would be on your way.

So, here is the luscious beauty I want to share with you.

You do not slay the dragons at the gate though force of will, mental agility, or punishment. You dissolve them with the power of your love.

Back to me, because I'm my best example of this at the moment. You signed up for love letters to your life and thoughts on living a luscious life. I have avoided sending this to you. It got ugly in my head. How I overcame my avoidance spiral and my dragons yelling "loser" "unprofessional" "not worth it" was by connecting to why I put that sign up box on my website in the first place.

I love what I do. I love the spark of knowing in you that believes living lusciously and embodied is divine personal expression. My heart longs to lead a deeper, more real conversation on being our womanly sacred selves. We need to know we are not alone in finding the temple of belonging in our own lives. I know my work makes a difference for women. I want you to know more about it. I want it to make a difference for you.

It is scary and vulnerable for me to say how much I want to share my work with you, hence the dragons testing my resolve. It has been a bit dicey battle these last months as my vision has deepened. Ultimately my heart won when I, with the help of some very dear coaches and friends, held me in the heat of my own love for my work and what it stands for.

Dragons dissolved by love, replaced by commitment and trust.

There is luscious, powerful, beauty hidden in those places of struggle that seem like weaknesses of character. Love is the way in. Always. It may take some wrestling, it may take some time to find your way, but your love is and will always be strong enough to dissolve the dragons.

Thank you for reading. Thank you for putting your precious e-mail in my sign up box. Going forward you can count on me to be in touch on a regular basis spreading dragon disolving love.

Love,

Sandi