Merry, Happy, Joyous, Solstice, just completed Hanukkah, soon to be Christmas, Festivus, Kwanzaa, and New Years to
you! Am I missing any? There are so very many. Regardless, I am wishing you so much love and celebration!
And, Whew! No wonder many of us are so dang tired!
I sit here bundled up with a box of tissue, fiery and spicy ginger tea, and cough drops close at hand. Yes, I am sicksicksick. I feel crappy as all heck, but I'll tell you a
wee secret. I am actually kind of relieved! I am resting. Deeply resting. All of the holiday stress and exceptions have been dropped. I am fully in this moment of the darkness of the longest days and the opening of winter. I am not celebrating the return of the light, but rather savoring the quiet of night. The stopping. The deepening. The stillness. My cold, a holy messenger of retreat and self care.
My blood and bone self demands
slow and gentle. Each time over the last couple of years I have pushed this I have ended up sick. I just can not push myself like I did when I was younger. A soul teaching for sure. Not one of loss however but one of grace and depth, for we are not meant to run at the pace of our overly mechanized, systematized, internet paced world. We are more organic and cyclical, more animal and instinctual. More individual and changeable. I have been in this place for a long while, finding my
way within the ways of the world and my own needs and flow. I always will be I guess. It is tender here. Sacred. Annoying. Creative. Maddening. As it needs to be.
What I am most present to in this is how desperately I want each of us to find this place of personal communion. I am hearing so many of us craving this in the most intimate and urgent way. This place of coming home to self in the midst of a world that does not often seem to
fit us, in fact often harshly disregards us. Where tending the deep and dark, and the light and bright of ourselves is honored and nurtured. It is heretical to choose this, to follow this desire. I have so much more to say about this. Soon, but not quite today as the words have not fully formed. But they are close!
How are you? What is the pace of life for you? Are you in the northern hemisphere where the darkness stretches long, or the
southern hemisphere where it is the light that lasts longer? Does this turn of the wheel of the year have meaning for you, or perhaps not? What are your longings? Your blessings? Your pains? Your fears? How at home in your life and world are you feeling?
Where ever you find yourself, I am sending you love and tender acceptance of just how it is.
I feel I should have some grand something to offer. A program, a year end special thing, a "let's get you all set up for a wonderful new year" cheer. I feel pressure to perform and provide. But this is not my way. I am called to serve, but not to dance a well branded, on topic message delivered all shiny and bright and elegantly co-ordinated. So I am quiet for longs periods of time until it feels right to speak, to offer, to reach out to you. My direction
shifts and changes. Not such a savvy business plan, but more and more a delicious feeling service path. I hope it feels good to you also, or at least of interest enough to have you keep allowing me the honor of visiting your inbox. I am so very grateful that you do.
Please know though, that however quiet I may be, I am here, behind the scenes of this busy, chaotic world. I am inviting you to enter the flow of your own sensuality of
living, of finding your own elemental nature. And if I can help you there, I would be most thrilled!
With love and peace to you and yours this Solstice day,
Sandi
