Wasn’t it just Spring, like last week? Or was that decades ago? And summer, it stretched so long, and quick. How are you? How has time been treating you? 

I haven't appeared in your inbox for a while. It feels like a minute ago, and a lifetime.

This is the way of things, I am starting to accept. It's taken a lifetime and occurs in a moment, as all true life lessons do, over and over.

So where am I now, and where are you as you read these words? What is the world bringing you, what you are letting go of? Where are you solid, and where are you a bit wobbly? Where is time linear and clear, where is it shrouded in mystery and liminal wanderings?

Me, I am finding my way after a deep retreat in the woods off the coast of Seattle. Days spent with kindreds, storytelling, ritual making, listening to ancient myths and mystical poetry. 

The funny thing is, both in the funny "ha-ha" and funny "life is full of mystery" ways, this letter was suppose to go out before I left. I was pushing hard to get many things lined up so that I could tell you about them here, so things would run smoothly, like clockwork. 

I had a plan!! A timeline! 

Well. 

It was the day before, the day before I was to leave. I was scrambling to find all the pretty, right words for you. I was polishing up something new and, I think, really special to offer you. I was trying to get things done in clock like efficiency, so I could breeze onto my flight and into a week exploring with elders and seekers. So when I come home, life would resume right as it should.

Then my website when down. And all my well laid plans with it. Because everything was intricately connected (or maybe "bound" is a better descriptor), and timing was so precise, when my site went down, everything else did too. 

It couldn't be more clear. It was time to shift attention to the retreat and away from my well laid (cough *overly controlled* cough) plans. 

Of course now that I am back, everything looks different. And yet the same. I still have something I think is really special to share with you, so you will see another letter from me soon. (It's about emotions and empathy and finding wise guidance!) 

But for now, I am feeling into the threads of connections to life, the ancestors, the future, ourselves, each other. I'm unraveling the idea and practice of "community". I'm feeling my own heartbeat life rhythm, and feeling it pulling me ever deeper into the mysterious flow of time.

I am baptizing myself in my own liminal nature.

I have learned, yet again, that I can let go of trying to control time, so that time can carry me to exactly where I need to be. Show up, feel, listen, follow the next small step on the path, trust Soul has it in hand. I'll learn this all again, because that is how it goes.

Circle into the center, wind out again, return.

Until next time, I send you so much love,
Sandi