It's Friday the 13th! Maybe
it is my Scorpio rising and sun in the 8th house but I love when things get a little witchy and a little spooky. I want to pull out my cute skeletons. I want pumpkin chai and baked apples. I glory seeing the leaves starting to change and smell of foggy mornings.
I am ready to fall into all the Fall vibes.
And, because we can hold more than one experience at a time, in the midst of the bliss of the changing season, I had a teary, mascara running meltdown yesterday.
And, I am not ruling out the need for another.
In the middle of a very mundane conversation with my husband I felt hot tears rising and all I could say was "I am so, so tired" as they fell from my eyes. (As I was wearing deep burgundy mascara you can imagine the trails of red down my face, very spooky season appropriate!) I was, and am, physically tired. Sleep has been
challenging lately. But there is also a weariness in my bones. Political divides, war, genocide, hate, inflation, illness, grief... Empathy is an essential and beautiful gift and skill, and boy when not cared for can be overwhelming.
I know these tears. They are the ones that tell me I've been carrying too much for too long and it is time to let go and recalibrate. They tell me that
the depth of my caring is not the problem, but my lack of gentleness with myself and boundaries are. They ask me to let them flow, let them carry away what is too much, let them clear internal space so I can find myself and my grounding again. After a good cry, a little nap, some lunch and a walk outside I felt worlds better. And clearer about the self-care I have been skipping.
This is gentle work. Tending work. Loving
work. For me and also the world around me. We do not need more over worked souls trying to patch up the world. We do need more well tended souls able to witness and give the world their gifts.
So, in honor of my meltdown, instead of 5 things this week I am offering one. A blessing. For you first. For those around you and dear to you, of course. And for the prickly, bone weary, tear heavy ones
of the world who don't have a soft place to land.
A blessing for your week:
May you tend yourself with gentleness.
May you tend your drear ones with the same. May those hurting find an oasis of gentleness to ease their spirits. May we all know the healing of softy
welcoming our wounded and overwhelmed places.
Until next time, Sandi
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